Many and many years ago, I heard from Si Gung (photo) in a lecture of his, that is not at all evil to be afraid. There is a kind of fear that leaves us alert, and that even allows us to anticipate adverse situations. He also said, that on the other hand, there is a fear that paralyzes. And many people today have a "Fear that paralyzes", and I am among them ...
Sometimes I think about my life, how it would be if I had not practiced Ving Tsun for more than half of it. I do not know exactly what conditions I would be in today. Thanks to the practice of Siu Nim Tau for 17 years, I am able to perceive a little better certain behaviors of mine, and I dedicate myself to try to improve them constantly. And being able to know myself better, I see a series of traits and tendencies, which I do not know where they would take me, if Si Fu, through Kung Fu Life, had not shown me how to re-signify certain paradigms. Like for example, my fear of heights.
A sensação de medo de altura, é difícil de descrever, quando estou dirigindo e isso acontece, é como se o carro começasse a aquaplanar e ao mesmo tempo eu começasse a ter vertigem. Geralmente quando passamos por uma situação de medo paralisante, tendemos a evitar situações parecidas, mas este não é o meu caso.
That fear I have of height, is the "fear that paralyzes" that Si gung (photo) spoke in that lecture. My fear of heights is so big that a simple action like climbing a chair and looking up to change a light bulb becomes a difficult and dizzying task. However, nothing compares to driving as I pass a bridge. And recently, passing by the Rio-Niterói Bridge, I had to face this limitation again.
The feeling of fear of height is difficult to describe, when I am driving and this happens, it is as if the car began to aquaplan(like float on water) and at the same time I started to have vertigo. Usually when we go through a paralyzing fear situation, we tend to avoid similar situations, but this is not my case.
Na cultura clássica chinesa, a posição que ocupamos numa Família é mais importante do que o próprio indivíduo e suas questões pessoais. Isso pode parecer radical se comparado a nossa cultura, mas eu acredito nesse processo.Pois, se você não tem naquele momento forças para se superar por você mesmo, você vai precisar encontrar essa força se levar a sério a sua posição dentro de sua Família. E não estou falando de Família Kung Fu somente. Um pai, não pode fraquejar, se não por ele, que seja pelo seu filho.
I really take it seriously to be Number 2 Disciple of the Clan Moy Jo Lei Ou. Or simply be a disciple of Si Fu (photo). Si Fu is not fearless, but he is centered enough to inspire those around him. In this way, in moments of adversity, some speech of him or simply his presence appears and I can move on.
In Chinese classical culture, the position we hold in a Family is more important than the individual himself and his personal issues. This may seem radical compared to our western culture, but I believe in this process. For if you do not have the strength to overcome yourself at the time, you will need to find that strength if you take your position seriously within your Family. And I'm not talking about Kung Fu Family only. A father can not weaken, if not for him, that it be for his son.
So, as I passed the Bridge recently, that same feeling as if the car was floating, as if there were no ground began to happen the closer I got to the top of the bridge. But I moved on. At this point in my life, I just can not stop. My life, it is not just mine anymore. The "Si Fu Thiago Pereira" can not stop, "The disciple # 2 " can not stop also ... But the main reason that does not let my fear of height stop me ...
... It is that every disciple can choose to use only his heart(saam 心), or also use the heart(saam 心) of his Si Fu. And since in my heart(saam 心) there is the fear of height. In times like these, I borrow the heart(saam 心) of Si Fu. And so, I can get on any bridge, change a lamp whenever I need to ... And also because of this, you would never know of my fear if I did not tell you.
The Disciple of Master Julio Camacho
Thiago Pereira "Moy Fat Lei"